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MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYONE!...OR EARLY CHRISTMAS!

Happy holidays! My lovely people! Its that time of the year again, And one of my favorite times of the year, Its Christmas! And honestly, I can't wait but to say, HELLO! And HI! Know its been a long time, I haven't been much on the bbs because my supporter expired and all, And honestly, I am not sure how the supporter forums is nowadays. But I do wanna tell something, I came to the BBS around specifically new years eve! As a way to find a community to celebrate with, And sure as sure, I joined in with the general BBS, And I had a good time there and made lots and lots of friends throughout.

So thank you very much on that! I am really bummed out these days that the BBS is gone, Because aside from posting art, I enjoyed posting there too, As I can talk about anything in general, That isn't politics or video games or music, And so on, Good riddance for the politics channel, But personally i didn't think the BBS had to go. We lost some good users over some petty discord drama :/

But enough about that, The thing is, I am glad to have come here with a community thats love to me to some people who began or grew to despise me, And yes theres a good amount of those, But that aside, All I can say is, For whatever I have done I'm sorry, And all of that, Yeah I'll admit, I wasn't much at my brightest around that time, Almost everything I'd write would result in a group of artists flaming me at the art forums, It always ends up like that, So best to stay away i guess, But that in mind I did have some fun time here and there, And mostly in the BBS too and made some rad friends along the way.

So thank you very much on that! I don't have any community to be with nowadays, As i hang out with a small group of friends (Basically I'm back to the usual) And i have a formed a little fanbase on deviantart and twitter, Over a certain game that I keep drawing fanart for.

But that aside, I wanna wish everyone a merry early christmas! A christmas drawing is coming up but please wait till tomorrow I'd rather post the things on the exact day and so on, The Gavle Goat Got eaten by birds which, Fine it didn't burn but a bit of variety is all good and games, I got an Iphone 11 pro max, Which is amazing, As much as I hate apple, This phone is pretty good, and its waterproof! UNLIKE M Y9! THAT JUST DIED WHEN IT FELL ON THE DARN BEER MU-Oh cough cough Sorry.

Jokes aside, Did get an Iphone 11 pro max, might get spotify premium and a discord nitro too (I might) So its all good and games from there)

Just wanted to post some update status.

Also if you check my profile, I am now linking some of my other social media there, As a new year comes to mind, I have some things to come in mind, I have been practicing alot of anatomy lately, I have a bunch of plans with what i wanna work with, For Next year, Begin uploading spicy content? Maybe, Get into animation? Why not, Drawing comcis? its out there. But those take alot and so be it....Well I did draw spicy content actually, Lets put it at that.

Anyways, Exciting stuff! Who knows whats gonna come up next, Know alot of people that I cherished and loved had passed away from october till december, But I'll keep my spirits high and try to put any bad situation under the rug...Hopefully..I mean theres that one thing I can't escape from and yeah, And as for my career, Well I am still searching for a college, Its been months now, I'm starting to fear that I might be useless and stuff.

Sorry for the long speech and all, But I have got so much to share, And little to no place to post it, So with love and care merry early Christmas! or merry Christmas.

Hello ladies and gents of newgrounds! I got some news! Its the holiday season this year, And for something special, Well uhh Lets say that, Commissions are open for abit, And I'll only do 1 to 2.

https://www.newgrounds.com/collab/view/20745

Full info all here

But anyways, The Man reason why I opened commissions and I am doing this is because of two things, First of all, I wanna treat mysef with a christmas present, Since I'll be honest, I don't have much friends at all, In a way I am a loner these days haha, Second of all. Persona 3 reloaded is coming up like next month, And its a game I really love so much. So I'd love to play it. Since its a game I am really excited for and yeah.

So that In mind, I'd decide to draw for those cases.

Thank you very much!

(I don't draw NSFW)

Heyo! If you haven't known where i am first..My supporter expired, Second of all I have been tad bit busy with overworking myself these days over becoming a better artist, I am going through a phase where I feel like I wasted my time in my life, I have never improved, i have never did anything, I am starting to fee I did nothing at all to be honest. But thats just me to be fair, I haven't gained a fanbase and I haven't gained anything because I am going through some stuff.

But this is not much of my worries anyways, its just a piece of it, Sort of a half even. But I have been very down these days, Lots of terrible things had happened through out the months, People who I loved and cherished like atsushi sakurai and wiesi had passed away, And I still can't handle the concept of them being gone, The conflict is still ongoing which is just insane at this point, I stopped following anything about it because I have never seen a situation send you this much to genuine insanity in my life, And I don't have much people to talk with these days.

I have been acting negative lately, And I sort of have an excuse over the fact things are not going well at all, I need some support, And I needed someone to pat me on the back, But I have none. I decided to isolate myself and make do with what I have I very few amount of people who help me out throughout, But they rarely appear tbf and some of my friends are a tad bit ignorant (Not anyone from newgrounds btw, I especially have an old friend who I used to be close with who became ignorant over me and obsessing over his boyfriend instead and his other friends, We barely talk tbh)

Either way basically I am not feeling good these days, If your wondering why the art I produce is so slow well itst because of that and I am trying to train to be better. I don't know where will my life go from there, I don't have hope in my life at all, I don't think anything amazing will happen to me these days, Nothing great is happening to me, And I will never experience nice things in life again...Aside from spending my only 50$ on fuckin video games due to autumn sale, That I planned to use to commission a drawing with, Hope you understand why I'm slow over my content

I can but I prefer not to, Showing My Tarma And that american guy from yu gi oh, Who I forgot his name, the thing is, I wanna be more of a cartoony focused type of artist, I always aspired to have an art style similar to scott pilgrim with some few tweaks here and there, I really wanna stick to my cartoony form of art style, Since I find it a tad bit enjoyable, And easier to work with.

So if your curios, Yes I can draw anime, Custom poses? Maybe, But..BUT, I think I am much more of a toon type of artist

My profile pic should prove it enough too

Well I do have an art thread

https://www.newgrounds.com/bbs/topic/1527297#bbspost27748661_post_text

Its right there, But yet uhhh nobody gave a crap about it or something. So uhhh, Yeah, I don't post most of my art here really, As I said, Dumping grounds is meant to be for sketches and warmups anything for the sake practice and checking on my skills to see how fart I went, This can range from anything really. Their not full drawing, Some of these sketches do get uploaded to the gallery if I am proud of them enough, That tarma was a good sketch of that.

But again the dumping grounds is only meant for my sketches, I don't know how art threads actually work and all, I am not someone who draws really fast, Please I beg you, Be patient, I really beg you to be patient

Well....Back to the nowhere lands I go....

#reletable

Anyways, Its about time I do this, Its been flying on my head, And you know? I got encouraged, If I had been taught anything between some tracer is somehow making money and getting paid, And someone who draws badly someone got commissions, I think I finally got the enthusiasm of "Its time I do commissions" Its a thing I have always planned but I wanted to do when I am at my, What I say, Very best.

A part of me feels like my skills aren't that fleshed out, And apart of me just says, Screw it, Go rogue, Nothing is stopping you, Really I feel like I got most of my essentials, Shading, And all of that stuff, I got it there.

Think its about time I might actually do this, So should I open commissions? Because I am close to planning to do that

Would love to hear your thoughts

The one thing I wont be doing ever is nsfw so yeah

So when I got into krita, I decided to rely on the default brushes before I got myself in the brush decision, And I was watching this guy known as david revoy, His basically, Krita Jesus, He uses that thing like alooooooooot, And he does amazing comics with it like pepper and carrot (Please give it a read its sooo good its proudly made in krita) He has a brush set he has made, And I was struggling to draw realistic things with krita's default pencils because, They seem to not vary much or do a good job in shading, But when I used david revoy's brush set, It changed everything on how I draw, Usually I do the sketch in a light manner like shapes and so one with the normal pencil, And use the mechanical pencil to darken the lines and make them more visible.

It made things so much better, Been drawing for hours, And I was experimenting with this, So I didn't try out much with shading, Nor even trying it on a cartoony character,But this can be a good sign, You never know I guess, I love this!

Just a practice sketch, but its more of what to come, Theres so much to learn from this, So yeah been practising for hours By now lol

Hopefully things go to like how I did on paper

Well practice makes perfect

Either way, Also I wanna thank who ever gave me supporter and all yeah wanted to make that clear

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MYSELF!

Yep June 9 as it is, Is my birthday, I still wish I can celebrate with you guys on the supporter forums, But honestly, I don't think I'm ever getting supporter ever again lmao, I still wish I wrote that goodbye, That I forgot to do.

Either way, I'm turning 19 And Ummm Yeah, Todays my birthday, I'm not sure if its going to be much of a special day, I feel like it shouldn't much but who knows really, Hell It might be a terrible day, And honestly I fear that might be the case.

But hell, Thank you very much, And happy birthday to me I guess!

Heres my discord incase you want to talk to me and contact me:

CubicallyForNow#4464

Heres my twitter:

https://twitter.com/MaciRollFights

Thank you all